I hate the number seven. It seems that every seven years, my humanity is tested. Sometimes the trial is tough, challenging, and sometimes I fail. Trip and fall. Hit my head and have a headache for a year. But I always get up, put myself back together and carry on. The Survivor mentality.
Or, as my father used to say, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
“By knowing things that exist, you can know that which does not exist. That is the void.” - Miyamoto Musashi
This time was another test of my humanity. It wasn't as devastating as it was back in 2006. But, then again, I'm not as young as I was either. And betrayals never get any easier to bear. Again, this was partly my own fault for forgiving an earlier transgression that I should have not have. 'Another chance,' I convinced myself. And it bit me a few years later.
"I feel like
I've been here before,
and you know,
it makes me wonder,
what's goin' on,
under the ground."
Lesson hammered home. The Void.
Yet..... if this past trial had not happened, I would not be where I am now. I am strong, happy, productive, and full of life. Living what exists now, I also know what no longer exists. And I am grateful for that. Rising from the ashes and flying with flames of rebirth. "In my pockets, I carry new-found
fruits and seeds that nourish my journeys. And scatter some along my way."
Happy First Anniversary, Phoenix. Welcome back, you old wolf.
Let's go, brother Coyote. We have an adventurous road of discovery ahead of us.
truth is that strength lies in the interior of the Warrior: in his
heart, his mind and his spirit… The heart is essential in helping the
intellect to understand the spirit.” - Miyamoto Musashi, Book of Five Rings